Life is proving to be full of love, laughter, and some tears with my boys. All good. I never thought I would be able to handle 2 on my own but this week, I am. Lew went back to work this week, so I am on my own.
The first week home with Eli was definitely a challenge for me. Breast feeding was a challenge, my hormones were out of control and I had a mini melt down. I realized that I cannot do everything and I cannot beat myself up for things that I cannot do. Even when my best attempt is given, I often beat myself up.
I suffered from and am still getting over it through medication, post partum depression. I didn't have it with Will but this time around, I just felt hopeless, and like the worst mom in the world.
After a wonderful conversation with my doctor, who put things in perspective for me, I am starting to feel a little better.
I am appreciating Lew and my boys more, as well as soaking up this special time.
It will be a journey but it is a journey worth taking.