Tuesday, November 8, 2011

My Boys . . .

Life is proving to be full of love, laughter, and some tears with my boys. All good. I never thought I would be able to handle 2 on my own but this week, I am. Lew went back to work this week, so I am on my own.

The first week home with Eli was definitely a challenge for me. Breast feeding was a challenge, my hormones were out of control and I had a mini melt down. I realized that I cannot do everything and I cannot beat myself up for things that I cannot do. Even when my best attempt is given, I often beat myself up.

I suffered from and am still getting over it through medication, post partum depression. I didn't have it with Will but this time around, I just felt hopeless, and like the worst mom in the world.

After a wonderful conversation with my doctor, who put things in perspective for me, I am starting to feel a little better.

I am appreciating Lew and my boys more, as well as soaking up this special time.

It will be a journey but it is a journey worth taking.









10 comments:

Lindsay said...

Good luck this week!! You can do it you are superwoman! I love the pictures!

Brandi said...

Sorry to hear you had a rough start, but I'm glad you're doing better. Eli is just yummy. ;) What precious little guys you have! :)

Christy said...

I had "baby blues" right after I had Porgie. It was rough, because she was my first, and I just so overwhelmed with everything. I cried ALL THE TIME. But I really think it is just a hormonal thing, because I acted a little loopy after the birth of all my kids. I had a complete meltdown at the hospital with Guppy because we forgot to buy a newspaper on the day he was born (I bought a newspaper on the day Porgie and Izzy were born, and put it in their memory boxes). I just couldn't stop crying over something so completely insignificant. And for the record, my husband called the newspaper and got a copy of the paper for like $1. Duh.

Bethany said...

oh my goodness - that last picture is priceless!

Barbara said...

I'm glad that things are getting better. Your boys are absolutely adorable!

amanda said...

it's so a journey worth taking. deep breaths and lots of baby steps mama. you can do it :)

blueviolet said...

Absolutely precious! I had PPD the second time, but not the first too. I fought through it, but I do remember how awful it felt. You sure do have a cute little prize right there!

Callie said...

Your boys are absolutely beautiful, Jenny!
I completely understand what you are going through, and I can say without a doubt that you are doing a great job. This is a really rough time. It gets better, I promise. Don't be too hard on yourself, OK?

Actuary Mom said...

Such sweet photos of the little guy. I just entered into your crazy world -- I have a 2.5 year old boy and a almost 1 week year old boy. It is overwhelming to think about!

Actuary Mom said...

OMIGOD, I can't believe I wrote I have two boys! I have a 2.5 year old boy and a newborn girl!! I was so expecting her to be a boy, I sometimes forget she is a girl!!