Saturday, December 31, 2011

mini me..

You look exactly like willsy and i hate to admit but a lot like daddy! You are the greatest gift of 2011. Can't wait to see you grow!
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Friday, December 23, 2011 off code!

I don't know about you but I am so excited for Christmas this because my little, well not so little Will is totally into this year! He talks about Santa and his magic, his reindeer and of course puppy paws.

On a number of occassions he has told me that Santa is going to come to our house and leave presents and set up his special james(his Christmas train).

I was so excited when I got the opportunity by to get a picture of Santa in our house, in our living room, by our tree!

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Monday, December 19, 2011

The Catch Up . . .

My First Baby...

You are currently the biggest social butterfly in school, so says your teachers. Not sure if this will be a good thing or bad thing down the line. For now, I am happy because I was a very shy kid. So, I am glad you are showing signs of being very outgoing.

You are such a sponge and remember everything I say to you! Your newest repeats that you say are..."Mom, you are freaking me out." Not the best one. My favorite though is, "Mom, can you do me a favor?" Hilarious!

You are obsessed with watching Cars now, and you often will role play with your "cars" toys each scene that goes on. You even do that with the Thomas the train shows you watch. I am just so amazed within the last two months how much you have grown up. You definitely are not a baby anymore.

Last week on the way home from school, I asked how your day was and what you had for snack and you told me, "Cupcakes." Oh. Who did you have cupcakes for Will? "For Baby Jesus mom! And we sang happy birthday to him but he was crying." I tell you, he had me in hysterics! I was laughing at how casual our conversation was. I finally have a little person to talk to and keep me company when Daddy is at work.

I also wanted to pose a question to moms out there...What does Santa do at your house? What kind of magic does he leave behind for your children to be amazed by? I am kinda stumped.

My Second Baby...

A routine is starting to come into light and I am so thankful for it. These past two months have flown by and have kind of blended together.

You smile, usually right after you are content from a feeding. Usually for Daddy. But, you do give them to mommy. You mostly like to talk to mommy.

Just this week you started sleeping 7 hour stretches at night. Knock on wood. Keeping my fingers crossed that this stays. It definitely helps me function throughout the day.

You love to be held. You enjoy tummy time and are quite strong.

Your nickname is squirmy because you love to kick and move your arms like crazy. I now know why I was kicked in the ribs so much! I think you will be moving a lot quicker, i.e. crawling, walking, talking. To me you seemed so advanced, but I am your mommy and think you are the best!

As your first Christmas approaches I am trying to convince your brother to go and sit on Santa's lap but he doesn't seem that into it. He's a bit scared of the man in red, so we shall see.

To both my boys....I can't imagine not having you in my life. I can't wait tell you are older so you can play together. To share memories that brothers will often create together. I love you both...More than air.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Almost 2 months . . .

It's hard to believe that you are almost 2 months old! Time certainly has gone a lot quicker this time around. Some days blend together from lack of sleep, but I get to see your first smiles. Which have been happening a lot lately.

I thought I would write what you have been up to, so one day when you look back on this, you will know all your firsts.

*You can roll from your stomach to your back, in fact you did it at 5 weeks! Totally impressive!

*You love to be rocked in the rocking chair. Willsy was much different and liked to dance in my arms.

*You love to lay on Daddy or Mommy's chest when we rock, so you are nice and close to us.

*You are not a big fan of your carseat unless we are moving in the car or on a walk.

*You have acid reflux, which Willsy had too. We tried the homeopathic route first but that didn't work. So, you are now on zantac.

*You love your Daddy so much, in face your smile most for him!

*You love taking baths, then snuggling in mommy's blanket. When I go to sleep at night, I smell you on it. I totally heart this.

*You are pretty strong. If we hold you up you lock your legs and stand pretty sturdy. When you are on your tummy, you can come up on your forearms. But, only for a short time.

*You usually fall asleep for the night around 8:30 or 9:00 and lately have been going for a 5-6 hour stretch. Some nights are better than others. But, I know we are on our way to sleeping through the night soon.

*Mommy is the one that is up with you feeding. I want to have this down so that if your Daddy tells you it was him, we will have proof. You and Mommy go on Facebook and read blogs while up at 2am!

I can't imagine my life without you little Eli. You definitely complete are family and I can't wait to watch you grow.

Love you more than air...Mommy

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Fishing With Daddy . . .

Recently we have had mild enough weather that Lew decided to take Will out near the Bay for some fishing. Although, Will did more digging in the sand by the looks of my foyer when they came home! They didn't catch anything but they got to have some good quality time together!

One great thing about being a mom to boys is, I will get to have a quiet peaceful mommy day when they are out doing "manly" things with Daddy!

Will just informed me after looking at this picture that there were no fishies in the water that day. That he wants to go back and catch one. Such a cutie!

Monday, December 5, 2011

Mommy Loves . . .

I love that you know who I am.

That you stop crying when I take you in my arms.

That when you eat, you stare at me like there is nothing more beautiful.

That you love rocking to sleep in my arms, whether it's to Lady Gaga or classical music, together we rock.

I love that you follow me around the room with your eyes, wondering where I am going.

I love that you love me.

And I love you sweet baby boy, more than air.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

My Delayed Twin . . .

Can you tell my litte dudes apart?

My boys are so similar it is scary! Long limbed, blue eyes, light brown hair, chubby little cheeks. I couldn't ask for more! Can't wait to hear who you think is who!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Being Thankful . . .

So very thankful that Will has taken to being a big brother so well. Although he's not that "into" being around Eli he definitely helps me out when I am in a pinch. I know when Eli is able to play with Will, that they will have a blast together! The other day Will had his play at school for Thanksgiving and we all came to see him and when 2 little girls almost ran into me. Will jumped infront me and said, "Watch out! Don't run into my mom and Eil!" Totally melted my heart!

Thankful for my sweet Lew, he works so hard for us everyday and will often stay up for 5-10 minutes during the night feedings with me, just to talk. Half the time I don't remember what we were talking about. He also goes and gets the bottle for me while I change Eli. Love you babe...more than air!

So thankful to have been blessed this year with another little boy. I can't imagine my life any different, even on the days that are hard. You can see the nervousness in my eyes in this picture but now that we are a month in, I have definitely become more confident in my mom of 2 skills.

So thankful that on February 14 of this year we found out we were finally pregnant after almost a year of trying. My little Eli gives us all so much joy. He generally is a wonderful baby except when he's had a little too much action for one day. He is a great sleeper (knock on wood) and usually wakes between 1-2am and between 4-6am for feedings. I remember with Will it being so hard but I guess having mad mom skills now, I have figured out the mom tricks.

This year I feel so very thankful to have been blessed with my family. I feel thankful to be surrounded by my boys. I couldn't ask for anything else.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Can you get any cuter???

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Monday, November 14, 2011

Your Story . . .

My Dear Eli...

You knew when you wanted to come into this world. Maybe it was the Angels who watch over us that made it happen. Your Grandma and Grandpa, who wanted to make it the 23rd. Whatever it may be, I do believe in God and Angels that watch over us and keep us safe.

It was Saturday the 22nd of October and your Aunt Mimi and cousin Lilly were coming over for a vistit. We were going to get Lilly's haircut in downtown Annapolis and go for lunch. A great day. Before we made it over that way, Aunt Mimi decided she was going to drive down a hilly and VERY bumpy road. Hoping it would bring you out soon! We were laughing hysterically as we were going over the bumps, Lilly and Will both got a kick out of it.

The day progressed with nothing out of the ordinary. In fact, no contractions were in sight. On our way home, I was reaching back to get your big brother back in his seat. Yes. He likes to escape sometimes. Right then, I had a massive contraction. Painful. More real then before.

Mimi and Lilly left and were headed back to Virginia to go to a Caps game that night with Uncle Kevin. Mimi said, call me if anything happens and I told her, highly unlikely! Will and I headed to the grocery store to pick up some ice cream and something for dinner. By now, it is around 5:00 and I start to feel kind of weird. Just out of sorts. By 6:00 I started to have contractions. They were not really regular but they were coming. I called Daddy and he was on his way home from work, then I called Aunt Mimi who was on her way to the game. She was freaked out and told me to call her back if I thought it wa the real thing.

Well, 30 minutes later, I knew it was the real thing. My doctor told me to head into the hospital. We dropped big brother Will off at a friend's house and were on our way. When we got there I was 4-5 cm dialated, so they wanted me to walk for an hour to get the contractions more regular and hopefully dialate more. After an hour of walking around in a gown and my nike's, the contractions were regular! Aunt Mimi had made it. Although, Uncle Kevin was a bit bitter about leaving the hockey game!

By 10:30 we were in a room and starting fluids. They checked me and I was 8cm, I was begging for my epidural but the anestheseologist was in with a c-section. UGH! So they called in another one who was at home. By 11:30 I had my epidural, and at midnight Dr. S broke my water.

The epidural was a success unlike with your brother where it did not take. I started to push at 12:1oam on October 23rd and you were born at 12:54am. I took it as another sign because your brother Will was born at 11:54. You both wanted to come on the 23rd and were born at :54 after.

Your birth experience was so easy compared to Will. I didn't feel much unless it was time to push and even that pain was not bad. It would make me have more children, if I would be promised that experience again! Even the healing process has been so much easier.

So far you are proving to be an amazing baby! You do have your fussy times and we now hopefully have that under control, if not we know it is reflux like your brother. You are gaining weight like a champ! Daddy thinks that you will be taller than Will since you were born at 23 inches long. I think both of my boys will be taller than me by the time they reach 6th grade!

I just want you to know I love you so much and can't imagine my life without my sweet Eli. Even your big brother is starting to warm up to the idea that you aren't going anywhere. Will has been amazing. When mommy is stressed out he try and makes me laugh and has done so well playing on his own when I am doing something with you. I hate for him to have to do that but he has taken on that role and seems to be thriving. Within the last 3 weeks he has grown up so much, I amazed by my almost 4 year old.

I am the luckiest mommy in the world to have my boys. Daddy who is the professional bottle maker, Willsy who is my snuggle bug no matter what, and now my baby Eli or Squirmy as we like to call you.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

My Boys . . .

Life is proving to be full of love, laughter, and some tears with my boys. All good. I never thought I would be able to handle 2 on my own but this week, I am. Lew went back to work this week, so I am on my own.

The first week home with Eli was definitely a challenge for me. Breast feeding was a challenge, my hormones were out of control and I had a mini melt down. I realized that I cannot do everything and I cannot beat myself up for things that I cannot do. Even when my best attempt is given, I often beat myself up.

I suffered from and am still getting over it through medication, post partum depression. I didn't have it with Will but this time around, I just felt hopeless, and like the worst mom in the world.

After a wonderful conversation with my doctor, who put things in perspective for me, I am starting to feel a little better.

I am appreciating Lew and my boys more, as well as soaking up this special time.

It will be a journey but it is a journey worth taking.

Friday, November 4, 2011

sick puppy...

My sweet Will was sick for Halloween but still wanted to go trick or treating. He doesn't really care about the candy, he just had fun going house to house. So, more for mommy and daddy!

Hopefully I will have time this coming week to actually do a "real" post. Life is proving to be full with my family of four and I'm okay with that.
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Saturday, October 29, 2011


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Sunday, October 23, 2011

welcome to our world...

Our little Elias "Eli" came on the day we hoped for!!! At 12:54 am today we were blessed with our little guy. He weighs 7lbs 12oz and 23" long. I feel like the luckiest momma in the world with my boys.
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Friday, October 21, 2011

News Flash . . .

There is still no baby. Little dude #2 is obviously very stubborn. My sister is wondering how I can walk around 4 cm and not be in labor, I thought the same thing for the first day. Then soon realized I could be like this tell his actual due date on the 30th!

I have had some contractions but nothing regular enough to head to the hospital for. We are still pulling for the 23rd and hoping that that is what little dude has in mind too!

If not, I see my ob on Monday morning and we are going to talk induction. I think she will probably be surprised to see me considering she thought I could go any day.

In other news, Daddy and Will went on his second field trip a Pumpkin Patch/Farm and Will had a blast! I got to have some alone time and watched Brides Maids. Hilarious! Anyway, I am hoping to post some pictures of Will's trip with Daddy later. Lew said he was so good, listened, talked to friends and was so loving to all the animals. Kind of wish I went but glad they got some bonding time. I got a big ole' hug and smoochie as he calls it when he got home followed by, "I missed you SO much momma!" I always miss him when I am without him. It will definitely be hard being in the hospital and not seeing him off to bed.

Did I mention I have been walking everyday...walked 4 miles at the mall the other day and not one contraction? Oh..well, he will come when he is ready.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Oh Baby...

38 weeks and 2 days. Little dude #2 is still in there. I had my ob appointment today and am now 4cm dialated. She says I could go any day. That's what she thought last week too. I am beginning to wonder if this kid is ever coming out!

If he doesn't come by next Monday which will be my 39 week check up, we are going to start the talk of inducing. Don't really want that but seeing how I have dialated this much, I think I will be okay with it all.

I have had really irregular contractions over the last couple of days, so hoping that they will get more consistent. Maybe this little dude wants to stay put tell the 23rd like his Daddy and big brother. Who knows.

After my appointment today I cleaned like a mad woman, have had one cup of Red Raspberry leaf tea (which is not the greatest tea) and Will and I plan on taking a nice long walk later. If this baby doesn't come tonight, I plan on walking with a couple friends tomorrow morning.

I am so ready for this little dude to come, Lew is ready, my sister is anxiously awaiting a phone call, and my good friend is on stand by for Will.

Come on baby, you can come...NOW! Thanks.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

total cuteness !

And Daddy wonders why I can't say no to you. Total cuteness!

The last couple of days you and I have been inseperable, I am so okay with that.

You asked me the other day when my brother comes out can you pick me up and hold me? Broke and melted my heart. So, today I got you out of bed, picked you up and brought you to snuggle in my bed.

You made me a mom, have taught me so much, you are my world. I will love you always, more than air.
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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Love this Puppy!

He changed his mind for Halloween...from a train to a puppy! He definitely is a cute one and snuggly too.
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Tuesday, October 11, 2011

and . . .

Did I get you? Unfortunately, no baby news to report yet. But, I am 3cm dialated so we are getting closer with each appointment. Maybe this will be the week. Or maybe I will be 3 cm until October 30th when this little dude is due.

Either way, I would like him to come sooner rather than later but he can wait tell Sunday. My good doctor is out of town from Thursday to Sunday afternoon. So...if he can wait in there tell then, that would be marvelous. My doctor told me to relax as much as possible. HA! Life with a 3 year old and a husband who works a ton, add my training into the mix, not a lot of time for chilling out. But, I definitely have cut back my training a little bit just so that I don't totally over do it.

So...I thought it would be fun to have you all guess when this little guy will come. When do you think he is going to make his appearance? We are hoping for the 23rd here because Daddy, Will and little dude would all have the same day in common. Guess we will just wait and see!

Happy Tuesday friends!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

my thoughts . . .

The last couple of nights I have been not sleeping well, to be expected. But, I have been doing my most deepest thinking in those moments. I know, how philosophical of me.

I have been thinking about being a mom of two. Surprisingly, I have been feeling very confident in my mom abilities during these deep, middle of the night moments. I was so nervous with Will at this stage of pregnancy. But, now I am not. I feel like I am going to be able to do it, and even manage it.

I have this feeling that I am going to be able to handle breast feeding this go around because I know what it takes to be a mom. I hate that I feel like Will is the trial run but honestly, isn't our first born a guessing game? I am anxious for this one to be here, so I can do things right. Does that sound totally horrible? Will has turned out amazing, I couldn't ask for a better little guy. But, now that I know what it takes, thanks to my Will, this time around it will be a lot easier for me.

I won't be stressed like I was with Will. I know the baby ins and outs. I know that his winky has to be pushed down or else you are going to have wet clothes to change with each diaper. Yes, we actually did not know to do this. I still laugh at it.

I think because I know what I know now, that I will be a great mom to this new little guy. I will also be an even better mom to Will because it will be second nature to me.

I feel like my boys and I will have a special bond that can never be broken, even when they do grow up and marry.

I know that I will love this little guy as much as I love Will. There is enough love to go around.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Ready. Set. Blast off !

At least that is what will says. When he's ready. And friends, this mom is ready.

I am not sleeping. Feel like I have to pee all the time. My house is clean. I just vacuumed for the second time today. Don't ask me why. Oh yeah, dog hair. It drives me insane these days! I even dusted, which I hate.

Will's clothes are cleaned, folded and put away. New clean sheets on everyone's bed. Bags are packed. My pilates class got me a new diaper bag...a Vera Bradley one. Plus, a bunch of Target gift cards. Totally blessed to have these ladies in my life. The new diaper bag is a wonderful treat for me.

I have shepards pie and homemade tomato sauce frozen, just because. I do have to go to the grocery store, just to make sure that Will has his "primary" snacks. Don't want my baby boy to go starving when Daddy is fixing pasta everyday. Hoping my sister will make a couple things for me, last time she brought over homemade pizza the day we came home from the hospital. Yum. That sounds kinda good now.

Tomorrow we are going to a Fall Fest because I am kinda hoping baby will come soon. Then Will gets to enjoy hayrides, face painting, and a petting zoo. He does have a trip planned with his school soon but, it's later in the month and I am hoping baby will be here. Daddy is going to take him to that one. Can you tell I want this baby here yet? On Tuesday I measured 37 weeks, so I am a little bigger than my actual date. After Sunday, this little guy can make an appearance if he is so inclined. My sister is in town, and maybe there will be a full moon next week.

I have to take a 200 question test this weekend sometime to keep my Personal Training certification active. I have been trying to take it all week but, I have been busy training or teaching. Or running errands. Plus, I can't take it when Will is around, I need total concentration. Exercise Science might seem like a piece of cake, but it's not. Lew has been working crazy hours as usual and is currently working his 7th day straight. Don't ask me how he does it, or myself for that matter. I guess we just make it work.

Well, I am going to run to Target now. Thinking about baking again. Trouble on both ends.

Happy Weekend friends.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

because . . .

its all I got.

a random post just for you.

my pregnancy brain has nothing new and exciting really to share except the randoms.

had a check up yesterday and i am currently at 2cm. little man's head is still high. but i beg to differ. he feels like he is resting right on my bladder.

my sister is coming back from a business trip today. thank goodness, since she is my other right hand man. not sure what I would do if I went into labor without her. she definitely helped motivate me last time and was very encouraging.

will is doing amazing in school. loves it. he's even sharing toys at school. a big thing. he is so smart too! i am amazed how quickly he picks things up. he has a very "engineering" type of mind. he is better with numbers than he is with letters. which is good because i was horrible at math, still am. i excelled in english courses, so i can always help him there!

he has officially changed his mind about being polar express for halloween. he is going to be a puppy now. the costume is really cute and definitely suits him these days. glad that i got it, just in case the little guy decides to make an early appearance. i would hate for will to miss halloween. he asks me everyday if it is halloween yet. such a cutie.

we are totally ready for baby. we do have to get a second crib mattress but i am not too concerned about that right now since he will be sleeping in the co-sleeper for a little bit. clothes are washed and put away. bags are officially packed. car seat ready. big brother gift bought for will. which i think he will love. i got lew a really nice card, that made me ball of course. just have to remember to give it to him.

lew got me an early push gift...a pandora bracelet! and it is totally gorgeous. he actually let me pick it out because he wanted me to really like it, since we can add to it. i have started wearing my heart necklace that he got me for will with his initials on it. hoping it will be my good luck charm.

have felt the need to bake lately. just made chocolate chip cookies with m&m's, two different recipes of pumpkin muffins. one with raisins and one with chocolate chips. i like the chocolate chip ones the best. thanks lindsay! kinda feel like baking something today, but not sure what. any good recipes you want to share?

enough rambling. time to get productive. ha. who am i kidding. i might be in my pjs for more than half the day.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Our Journey to You . . .

18 weeks

23 weeks

26 weeks

32 weeks

34 weeks

36 weeks

What a journey it has been. From trying, to it actually happening, and to you growing inside me. Every time you kick me I am reminded that God made us wait, just for you.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Love you baby !

You were upset that your helicopter was still wet from the paint and you wanted to play with it. Even that face melts my heart. I love you more than air.

Also...36 weeks today and feeling it!
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Friday, September 30, 2011

Totally Stoked !

I am not here today because I am doing my very first guest post at KLZ's place, Taming Insanity! She is an amazing blogger and always has the funniest stories to tell. Go check out her blog and you will be hooked. Then check out my post about the joys of pregnancy with a preschooler. Too funny!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I Am Starting to Hate Nesting !

My nesting fever has been in full force for about 2 weeks or so. I am a total neat freak/organizer by nature so you can only imagine what nesting is like over here. It's bad! Lew keeps making fun of me for it too!

So far I have already, organized Lew's closet. Switched his summer clothes to fall and winter. Did the same, somewhat for my side of the closet. Just did it with Will's and man oh man I went a little over board with his summer clothes. I don't think he wore a couple of his shorts. Lesson learned.

I have labeled Will's and #2's dresser, you know because Lew will get confused as to what is Will's and what is #2's! ;)
I have gone through most of Will's toys and organized them better into their proper containers, even though he messes that up everyday for me.

Lew helped me get the boy's room together by pulling out the crib, and setting up shelving for all of Will's nice trains. So now all of #2's blankets are in the crib drawer and neatly stashed away.

Baby boy's clothes are all washed and put away, smelling oh so good. I totally love the smell of dreft! So much so that I think I am going to start washing all of our sheets in it. I know. Bad. That stuff is expensive!

I have our co-sleeper bassinet set up, baskets with diapers, butt paste, burp rags, and all the baby essentials set up in our room and downstairs in the living room.

If you saw my linen closet you would think I am a tad obsessed. I have a couple packs of newborn diapers, and a couple of size 1. Then I have like 6 packs of wipes. Crazy. I know. Then I have tons of Aveeno baby soap and lotions, it's sick. But the boy's in my family have to use Aveeno because of the horrible dry skin they get. So I tell myself, I am totally looking out of them.

Then, I think this is the craziest. I am acting like I will never leave the house. I went out and bought extra laundry detergent, softner, toliet paper and paper towels. I am not talking a couple rolls here. I am talking like my laundry closet is over flowing with paper goods. That one, Lew hasn't noticed yet. Thank goodness! There would be some serious jokes going on!

Haven't done much cooking, because I feel like the boys could live off pasta for a while. Totally kidding here. Maybe not. I did make a Shepards Pie and froze more than half of it. I am not a cook. I am a baker. So if I froze some cupcakes we would be golden for a while. My sister did make some food for me last time, so I am kinda hoping she will do it again. Hint. Hint.

Okay. I am sure you are totally bored of hearing about my nesting ways. I am. I am sick of nesting. This baby needs to come!

Monday, September 26, 2011

breast feeding . . .

I have to admit, I am pretty clueless when it comes to breast feeding. I am bound and determined this time around to breast feed for as long as possible. With Will, I was not taking in enough calories and pretty much could not produce enough for him.

I am a bit clueless about the whole process. I pretty much winged it with Will and just gave it a shot. With #2 on the way, I am still winging it. I have no clue how often breast fed babies need to eat, how long on each breast, and when I pump and he uses a bottle, how much will I feed him?

I know the basics of feeding a baby and know when they are full. But for some reason this breast feeding thing is freaking me out!

Did you wing it? Did you read a book? Or did you get your information from the internet? My sister's never breast fed, they attempted but it didn't last. My mom breast fed me, but unfortunately I cannot get any information from her. I feel like I should have asked these questions when she was sick. She did say, that I was the best baby out of her 4, so that has to count for something.

Any advice you can give would be most helpful! Thanks...

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Guess Where We Are Going ?

We are leaving today and chasing Thomas to another state. One last, little trip for us as a family of three. Will is over the moon excited to see his train friends again and mommy and daddy are just excited to get away!

As Will would say, "Watch out for the troublesome tracks!"

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

34 weeks and 2 days . . .

I went to the ob today, measuring right on, have gained a total of 20lbs thus far. And I am 1-2 cm dialated. I don't think I dialated until 39 weeks with Will. My ob thinks our little guy will come early, I think so too!
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Sunday, September 18, 2011

Labor . . .

Today I have reached 34 weeks. Very hard for me to believe but at the same time, I am beginning to feel ready to meet baby boy #2.

The one thing that I am not looking forward to "meeting" again is the pain. Labor. Ugh!

I was induced with Will by my choosing which, I definitely will not do again. Will was definitely not ready to come out. He came at 39 weeks and 3 days. I think he could have stayed in there for another week or two and been content. I must admit, the labor in the beginning was not that bad. I could handle it. I think I was only in real intense labor for about 10 hours but that was with an epidural, that semi worked.

The pushing, now that's a different story. I started pushing around 7:30am and Will was born at 11:54am. You get the picture. It was not fun. The epidural slowly started to disappear, and they had to give me a refill of that little bugger because it got so painful! Half way through, nurse Molly realized that Will's shoulder was stuck and causing some issues of why I was struggling. Not fun. I was in so many different positions trying to get this kid out, it was ridiculous! Good thing I was not filming an episode of the Baby Story because it would not have been a pretty picture!

After all that, I did get my handsome baby boy and let's just say a REALLY bad tear. TMI...I know.

So...I can handle the labor pains, the pushing and I do not get along. My question to all you moms out there who have experienced birthing for a second time, did the kid just pop out, did you have to push forever, was it the same, or was it a totally different and maybe better experience?

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Not a Baby Anymore . .

Where does the time go my sweet Will? You were just curled in a ball on my chest, so warm and filled with cuddles. Love you more than air my first baby boy.
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Tuesday, September 13, 2011

My Magic Moment . . .

After a while I thought it would never happen. We had been trying for almost a year and it seemed like we would never get our wish of adding to our family. Then on Valentine's Day, I decided to take a test. It would be a little early, so I was trying not to get my hopes up.

When I took the test, I was so nervous and anxious all in the same moment. I stuck the test on the edge of the bath tub and left the bath room. I tried to busy myself for the longest 3 minutes ever. When I came back, I picked up the test with my eyes closed and said one last little prayer.

When I opened my eyes, there was one very dark line and a very faint line that was so desperately wanting to shine on through. Inside my heart was fluttering and my hands were shaking. Could it really be a positive? So at lunch time that day, I took another test. This time that second line was beaming! I was pregnant! I was kind of in denial until I took a picture of it and sent it to Lew at work.

I think he was in shock too. He sent back a message, "Is this for real?" And it was.

On Valentine's Day of this year, we had an amazing magic moment. A moment that we will remember forever.

And at the beginning of June we had another magic moment. We found out we were having baby boy #2! We couldn't have been more happy that he was healthy and looked just like his brother!

I can't leave my first baby boy Will out...I had to include a picture of when I was pregnant with him. After all he was my first magic moment that was concieved in only a month. Definitely magic.

Thanks to Shell for another amazing link up about sharing our magic moments. If you want to check it out for yourself, click the link below and join in the fun!

Monday, September 12, 2011

My Little Linus . . .

To say he is obsessed with his blue blanket is putting it mildly. It's his first love, his comfort when he's tired, and when he's not feeling good. And I'm okay with it.

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Saturday, September 10, 2011

My Ahhmazing Sister !

My sister got all these wonderful clothes for #2! I have been a bit hormonal lately and having my sister come out definitely made my day. I am so lucky to have such a loving and wonderful sister!!
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Friday, September 9, 2011

I See Me . . .

This post was suppost to be about my little guy's first day of 3's Preschool. But, as I loaded these pictures I realized something, he looks so much like me when I was a kid.

We have that same wide grinned smile, big blue eyes, and face shape. It's weird because I have never really noticed before because he is a boy, he does look a lot like his Daddy. But seeing this first picture, I realize that my little guy really is a spitting image of me. Too bad I don't have a lot of pictures of myself as a young kid, being the baby of 4 kids, the pictures sort of dwindled. Kinda stinks. I will have to find one and scan it so I can show you how much my baby actually looks like me.

Anyway. My Will had a great first unofficial day of preschool on Wednesday which is the picture below. He met his teacher and played, while we had an orientation with the director. All of his class mates from the 2's program are in his class which definitely helped with the transition. He also has the same assistant teacher as last year, who I love!

In this picture, it's the first official day of Preschool and he could not have been more excited and happy to be going to school! He woke me up each morning asking if it was time to go to school. Totally love his eagerness. He had about had it with pictures this week, so I told him to make me a silly face. He never disappoints. Hopefully he is not the class clown, although I wouldn't put it past him, because he is hilarious!

When we picked him up today, his assistant teacher said he did absolutely amazing! He was a good listener and played well with others. I was so happy to hear this and am so proud of my little guy.

I think this year is going to be wonderful for him not only in the learning department but socially as well. Can't wait to see what the future holds for my bright little star!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

32 weeks . . .

Covered my face because it has been a rough week!
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Hormonal . . .

I thought I would compile a list of little things that have been annoying me lately and things that have been making me want to cry. Because you know, who doesn't want to remember these things when you are pregnant....HA!

First of my girlfriend's has a scotty, I love dogs, I have one. She annoys me at times. But this scotty, annoys me. Everytime I come to her house the dog will bombard me for treats. It will scratch my leg until I give it one. Really? I mean it's so annoying! My friend will keep a dozen treats on her table just so her dog gets a treat everytime someone comes in. Seriously? UGH! Love my friend dearly but that dog is totally spoiled.

Where we live it is extremely expensive and for us to buy a house with a white pickett fence would cost us $600K or more. So we live in a small town house, that I do love. We are close to downtown with all its attractions, near the bay, the beach, you really can't ask for more. And good schools! But we have no space! I feel like Will's toys are taking over the house, they are literally everywhere. He insists on having his 3 bikes in the house because, yes he does ride all of them. This has to be vetoed soon! Our dining room table is too big for the now we need to find a circular one that takes up less room. I see an ikea trip in my future. Luckily we have a very spacious master bedroom but that is being taken over by baby stuff we have taken down from the attic. The boys are going to eventually share a room and Will's room is actually big enough to accomodate this but the issue of the toys comes up again. UGH! What can you do?

Lew works really long hours, we are talking 60 hours a week, sometimes more. So, Will and I left on our own quite a bit. He often comes to training sessions with me, which is fine and dandy. But there are days when he is just out of control and I need someone to watch him. Unfortunately, we live away from my family so that is not possible. Will and I often eat dinner alone. We sit on the couch to eat dinner and watch Nick Jr. I know horrible, but it's hard when your spouse works late and all you feel like doing is ploping down.

As good as Will is, he has his moments. He tests me. What kid doesn't? And I am at the point where his little outbursts, drive me CRAZY! I try and calm my nerves but sometimes they just get the best of me and I have to send him to his room so I can have a moment. Sometimes being the parent sucks! I want him to have fun but he needs to listen and that just doesn't happen sometimes.

This guy in my neighborhood who is kinda out there almost t-boned me yesterday when Will and I were leaving the neighborhood, totally freaked me out! My hands were shaking! I totally feel like this guy has it out to get me for some reason. Let's just say, my doors are always locked!

Will was at his private swim class session yesterday and he was doing amazing! I mean he definitely is a little fish. When your child is done with their class you are aloud to get in the water with them and practice their skills if no one is in the pool, which there usually isn't. I have never done only because we belong to a pool. But yesterday, this mom came to bring her daughter for her class which was right after Will's. I heard the manager at the door say you still have 15 minutes tell her class. The mom gets her daughter changed and then comes out and tells the dad that she is going to take her to the pool so she can practice BEFORE her class. I was fuming inside because I have paid for private lessons, which are EXPENSIVE and now this little girl is going to distract Will. The pool is not that big and the shallow end where Will was diving for rings is even smaller. The instructor kind of looks at the mom, like what are you doing in here but never says anything to her. She is at one side of the shallow end which is less than 10 feet from where Will is practicing. He still has 10 minutes of class at this point and I can see the instructor is totally losing his attention because he wants to play with the little girl. I am fine with Will wanting to play with friends, that is why we did group sessions before but when he wasn't learning anything because of it we switched to private. Anyway, I felt like saying something to the manager but I didn't because I was beyond annoyed and I didn't want the parents to hear me "telling" on them. When Lew got home from work yesterday I told him about it and he was ticked to say the least. The next session of swim classes are coming up and Lew said he was going to say something the next time he could take Will. Oh, well.

I plan on taking off 4 weeks after I have baby boy #2 so I have been getting my clients prepared and I started working on programs for them to do while I am unable to train. It's complete with instructions and pictures of each exercise. So I am hoping that they will use these because it has been a lot of work! I feel like I should just create an app of myself doing all the exercises so they will do them.

Bras. Yes. I am annoyed with Bras. Mine no longer fit and I had to go bra shopping which I hate to do when I am pregnant. I normally get all my "normal" bras from Victoria's Secret because they have such a wide selection. I went to the motherhood maternity store and tried on like 7 different bras and none of them felt "comfortable". I ended up getting one that felt the best and after I took it home and tried it on again, I hated it. The underwire hurts and the color is boring! But, I kept because it is bigger and it's a nursing bra so, I will use it. I ended up going to Target the other day and found one that I really like, that is a nursing bra and it is actually somewhat cute. But I tell you, wearing a bra pregnant just sucks! Hate it. Plain and simple. Where do you get your bras? Anyones that you have that are super comfortable?

Okay...enough of my ranting. Hormones suck! I can't cry over one more commercial!

Saturday, September 3, 2011

You ARE Amazing . . .

My Dear Sweet, Loving Willsey....

Soon you are going to be a big brother. When we first found out, I admit I was a bit scared having to share my love for you with another baby. But as your brother continues to grow inside of me, I find my love for both of you growing each day.

Your love for me, always amazes me. I feel like the luckiest person in the world to have your love. Someone who loves me no matter what. Who kisses your boo boos, who tucks you in at night and sometimes gets to snuggle, and you even cover me up with one of your most precious blankets. You love your momma and I love you, more than air.

You talk about your brother a lot, even telling people that you are having a baby brother and you tell them his name. You sometimes will mimic that you are going to rock him just like this, you holding your arms together. Melts me each time. Everyone says that I am so lucky because you seem like you are going to be very welcoming of your little brother. And I have to admit, I think we are going to get lucky. I think you are thrilled to have another little bub to play with, to watch over and to make silly faces at.

Whenever you see a tiny baby, you often look up at me with puppy dog eyes and say, "see mommy, baby is so.....cute!" Which definitely makes me feel good that you have that response instead of another one. You love paying attention to them and are often curious when a mommy rocks, gives the baby a binki or tucks them in to their car seat. I love that you are so attentive and interested in the aspects of a baby. It definitely makes me believe that you are going to be an awesome brother.

When you were a little baby yourself, you suffered from bad acid reflux and getting you to sleep was often a procedure. Daddy and I would take turns rocking you but you preferred to be held and rocked. Daddy had a play list of songs and one night you instantly fell asleep to Seal's, Amazing. The words go..."I want you to always think you are amazing."

And you know what my sweet, Willsey? You are Amazing. And always have been. Please continue to shine and love like you do. Because you are one loving little guy.

Daddy and I love you always, more than air.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

a long week . . .

This past week has been interesting to say the least! This is my first time getting on the internet since Saturday. Why you ask? Hurricane Irene decided she was not going to be very friendly to us! She knocked down trees all over our county and wires were litereally everywhere! We did not get on power on tell late Tuesday night!

We were in complete darkness for a total of 3 days, not my idea of fun but we dealt with it. By Monday night, I had a complete and utter meltdown. Will's dvd player lost its charge, my laptop was not wanting to play any of his dvds, he had not been falling asleep tell after 10pm and I just needed a moment. Finally, I grabbed his books and told him that we could read with our flashlight for a little bit, which thankfully he was willing to do for the gazillionth time. He fell asleep. I sat crying on my bed eating M&M's. Where was Lew? Working. Definitely glad he wasn't there to see this hormonal meltdown. Finally, I got control of my hormones and started reading my own book and finally fell fast asleep after all the tears. Not fun my friends, not fun at all! Did I mention that everything in our fridge had to be throw out? Good times.

So in the last week, we have made it through an earthquake, a hurricane and raging hormones! Yippee!!!

Right now, I am feeling good. Nesting has started, which I love because I am an organizing freak. Baby boy #2 is such a mover, constantly doing flips and flops. Has not developed the hiccups on a regular basis. I think he is going to be longer than his big brother. Feels like we might have a basketball player on our hands. I can't believe in 2 months or less maybe, he will be here! This time around it has gone so fast and I am soaking it up because this might be the last one for us. Yes. We have said he will be the last one. But, you never know. I will post another belly picture soon.

Will starts school next week, and he cannot wait! A totally different experience from last year. He keeps asking me when he can go and cannot wait to meet his friends again. He has become such a big kid but to me he still has his baby-ness. He is always curious, asks lots of questions and never stops talking. A good thing and a bad thing. We are still working on the eating habits but I told myself, I can't stress about it. We met his new pediatrician and she was amazing and gave some helpful hints. Will is sleeping great through the night and actually sleeping in lately, which I love! I have been able to stay up later and read and sleep in myself. So nice because soon it won't be possible.

Went to our local Wee Sale which is a huge consignment sale that local moms get involved in. There are racks and racks of clothes. Baby items, toys, books, dvds and tons more. I was really going to see if I could find some fall play clothes for Will since he goes through them so quickly. I actually found 2 brand new Gap hoodies for him that only cost me $6! Total deal. I got a couple of long sleeve shirts for him, some sweatpants (Gap), and some jeans for about $20. I am always amazed at the deals that I come away with! I did happen to take a look at the baby boy clothes even though I know I don't need anything, I couldn't help it. They had so much which they usually don't. I got a pair of Gap carpenter jeans, with 2 long sleeve Gap onesies for $4! Did I mention those were brand new too! Then I got a couple of Gymboree outfits all for about $20. So in total I maybe spent $50 on the two boys and got so much stuff. I am always proud when I can save my family extra money on things like this. If I would have gotten this stuff at the Gap, I would have easily spent over $150. I usually go to the Gap when they have sales because I think they have the best quality clothes for boys and they are usually the cutest. But, it's gotta be a deal.

Okay, now that this post has become a total random, I think I will stop here before you all get bored. Have a great Thursday!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

What's he getting ready to do?

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Thursday, August 25, 2011

a memory for my boys . . .


It will be a day that I will never forget. It might not seem like much to west coasters but us east coasters are not well prepared for earthquakes.

Everyone's experience was different, some less scarier than others. I kinda wish we were in the less scarier of the two. But, we weren't.

It happened to be a gorgeous day with a slight breeze, you could not ask for a better day. We started it off meeting the new pediatrician for the boys, who turned out to be amazing! Success in my book. Followed it up with a flu shot, which Will was non too happy about but he got to pick out a toy from the treasure box, which he thought was totally cool. Came home and had a snack. Then we were off again, this time to Will's swim class. My little fishy did wonderfully. Jumping off the side, swimming with one noodle, awesome kicks, and going under water to grab rings. He always comes out looking so happy and content. Did I mention that I cried when I saw him jump off the side, unassisted? Good thing Lew wasn't there. We decided to take a shower there because we were going to head to Target and pick up a couple things that we needed.

I'm putting every moment in there because it is helping me come to terms that we were where we were because that's where God wanted us to be at that moment. Otherwise the what if's would drive me insane.

We got to Target around 1:00. Parked further back in the parking garage than normal but near the cart return. We picked up a couple items, definitely not a big Target shop for us and I let Will pick out a toy because he did not cry at the Pediatrician appointment. Surprisingly he picked out a toy quite quickly and we were ready to check out. I found a line that had one lady in it, in and out I thought. She was signing up for a Target red card, and their computers were acting up.

Clue 1. Something is up. Did not figure this out tell later. They moved her to another register next to us. Same problem, she wasn't able to get the key pad working in order to sign up for the card. Clue 2. Something definitely had been up. But, we were all going about our day as if nothing was going to happen in the next 10 minutes.

Decided after the busy morning, and frankly tired of drinking water that I would get myself a iced tea from the Starbucks. Took maybe 4 minutes. On our way to the elevator, which Will wanted to take.

Got off and headed to the car where I first put our bags and water in. Then I grabbed Will and put him in his seat, pulled out his toy for him. Dropped the cart off just across the way from us. Went back to Will to open up his toy, as he was being pretty persistent.

Felt nauseus and thought there must be a lot of cars coming up the parking garage because you can feel them drive up. Feeling past and then all of sudden, I was thrown off balance. I looked up from Will's toy and saw the huge cement columns swaying. Literally moving sideways. The ground beneath us was rolling, like it was a wave, and was lifting it with such ease. I threw the toy down, unhooked Will and hugged him close to my chest like never before. To see these cement columns and cement walls tilting sideways was like nothing your mind could have imagined. All I thought was this sucker is coming down and I better have Will in my arms.

Cars were still driving up because they say that cars didn't really feel much, maybe a rumble or two. Customers were quickly getting to their cars. The weird thing is, there was no screaming. Then you see people racing down the steps in Target and an you hear the store alarm. To be honest, I thought I had just hallucinated. Did I really see tons of cement tilted on it's side? I couldn't have. Thank goodnesss Will had no idea what was going on. I think I pressed his head so tightly to my body that he just closed his eyes. I quickly grabbed him and put him back in the seat, with my hands shaking and my eyes starting to fill up with tears. Cars were still pulling in and that is when I thought, I must have just imagined what had happened.

As I got towards the exit awaiting to go down, I noticed the line going down the hill to get out. Then I saw people running and jumping in their cars. As we got out of the garage, I could see the sun shining and thought just get me the f*** out of here! Hands shaking, body numb and tears welling in my eyes, I then knew we had been threw an earthquake. I instantly tried calling Lew, no answer. Called my sister. No answer. Called my good friend. No answer. Kept calling Lew. No answer. Finally, I got a text from my sister that said, "We just had an earthquake!" She was on the fifth floor of her office building and was out safely.

I drove home so fast, I just wanted to be in the safety of my own home and away from the parking garage. Ella was quite scared when we got home. She had pulled up an area rug because she had been trying to hide. This is a 100lb Rottweiler we are talking about. Scared out of her mind. Pictures on the wall were sideways, dvds and games on the floor. Luckily nothing was broken but honestly I could care less. I was just happy we made it out of that stinkin' garage!

After about an hour, I had heard from Lew, my sister (a couple of times) and my Pape. All were safe.

To my your mommy I am so glad that we were all together. To my first baby Will, I am sorry if I squeezed you so tight (which you told daddy later) but I wanted to make sure that if the gargage was falling down, you were with me. Thank you for holding on to me tightly too and for covering up your little baby brother. You were amazing. Such a strong boy. To my second baby boy, thank you for being right where you were. I could not imagine how I would have managed a newborn and a toddler during this. You were tucked nicely in there, probably lulled to sleep by the rolling cement under my feet. My arms were wrapped around your big brother, his around mine and together I was in one giant hug with my boys. With you both so close, everything was going to be okay. And it was.

So Will and baby boy that is our story. The story of how we made it through our first and hopefully last earthquake. Together.

p.s. we love you too daddy. we wish you would have been there to protect us.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Thankful . . .

After our scary day today...hugging him tighter.

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Saturday, August 20, 2011

Ahhh..Beach...The Big Scare !

It was Sunday. The first full day in the OBX. On tap, a walk on the beach in the morning for some family sea shelling and a couple jumps in the waves of course. Then we had decided to do the pool early and then the beach in the afternoon. Simple. And a perfect first day in my opinion.

After eating my Kashi cereal with milk AND a full glass of orange juice, I started to get us ready for the pool. Making sure to drink a bottle of water while doing this, since it was going to be a hot day. After I got everything together and Lew loaded the car, we were on our way to the pool which is just a couple of minutes away.

The pool was nice and cool and just felt so good on this hot day. I got out after about an hour or so to read my book. Mean while, I have finished another bottle of water. Getting a little too hot, I decided to get back in the pool after about 30 minutes of reading. Let Lew have a break from watching Will and played with Will and practiced his swimming with him.

An hour or so had past, everyone was in the water once again and I felt a cramp. I thought it was from swimming since Will and I had been playing around. But when we started to pack up and go back to the house for lunch, I could barely stand up straight. I thought, how could I pull a muscle? I am in pretty good shape and have been swimming with Wil all summer long. As we got to the car and I sat down, I felt my stomach tighten and I couldn't breathe for a second. The tightness went away. Thank goodness.

As we got to the house I had another tightening followed by that cramp again. I didn't tell Lew because I didn't want to freak him out. So, I quickly got into the house and went to our room to lay down. Looking at the digital clock on the night stand, I realized that these were more than braxton hicks contractions, because they were coming almost every 40 seconds. Lew came looking for me and he could see the worry in my eyes.

We decided that I should just rest and try and take a nap, that the heat probably just took it out of me. Paranoid, I watched the clock and the contractions slowly started to slow down and come less frequently. I finally fell asleep for about an hour but was quickly woken up but a really hard contraction. I went to the bathroom to check to make sure everything was okay and it was but I was still freaking out. By this time it is nearly 3:30, I haven't had anything to eat since the morning and I haven't had anything to drink in about 2 hours.

I go upstairs to the family room and sit down and the contractions really start coming and they are fierce! Like, my poor little guy was looking like an alien in my stomach bad. We called my ob's on call service but knew at this point that we were going to the hospital. Lew gave me some water which I started drinking but between the contractions and being worried, I could barely get it down. By 4:30 my ob hadn't called us back so, we just left. Lew's mom watched Will and we were headed back to the main land that was an hour away!

The contractions were so bad that I had to stop and wait for each one to pass before I could walk down all the stairs to the car. I could see the panic on Lew's face and the determination to get us there. The hour drive turned into a 40 minute drive thanks to Lew's efficient and safe driving!

The contractions were not that bad at the hospital, so I was hoping nothing was wrong at all. They quickly checked us in and a wonderful nurse from labor and delievery came and got us. She asked a round of questions and was so nice to us, I didn't even feel like I was at a hospital. I got changed into one of the lovely gowns and peed in a cup. I got hooked up to monitors and we were relieved to hear our little guy moving and his heart rate nice and steady. BIG SIGH here.

She checked my urine levels and said I was so dehydrated, I was almost of the ph scale. Yikes! All that I had to drink that day was clearly not sufficient enough and she said I should be drinking a bottle of water for every hour I am awake in the heat. She was sure with some fluids and a muscle relaxer to calm down the contractions, that I would be okay.

A blown out vein, 1 bag of iv fluids, some weird muscle relaxer, graham crackers, apple juice, an italian ice and one jug of water later. I was free to go. Thank goodness. The contractions had stopped and I was feeling better besides my abs and back hurting like crazy.

So for the rest of the trip I drink about 120 ounces of water a day. By Friday I had to include a gatorade in there because I felt like I was going to float away. I normally drink a lot of water but being that I am hydrating for two, I needed a lot more than I had anticipated.

Note to self, if you question how much water you have had to drink, drink more!

My lovely souvenier from the OBX. And not to worry, my little dude is very active and I am seeing my ob this week. And yes, we did give them a piece of our mind as to why we never got a return phone call.

With this scare, we have now started to get all baby stuff out, cleaned and ready. But, he better stay in there tell Halloween!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

The Beach . . . Ahhhhhh

We were lucky enough to squeeze in one more vacation before our second little bubsy makes his appearance in the fall. The OBX were calling our name and we had such an amazing time with a few hiccups. More on that in the next post.

Will is such a water boy and I have a feeling that he will be just like his daddy, a beach boy. We had a great time swimming in the pool, the ocean and playing in the sand. It could not have been better!

The boys at the Avon pier...doing what they!

We love doing those shots where you hold the camera out with one hand!

The boys doing their mad faces...

My handsome hubby...looking!

Not totally perfect but good enough for us!

My tuckered out bubsy after a long day at the beach and swimming at the pool. And of course he has his blue blanket.

How can you not resist that smile?! Love this little guy so much!

That was just a snippet of our vacation...I will tell you what happened on day 2 of our vacation...stay tuned!