Sunday, October 9, 2011

my thoughts . . .

The last couple of nights I have been not sleeping well, to be expected. But, I have been doing my most deepest thinking in those moments. I know, how philosophical of me.

I have been thinking about being a mom of two. Surprisingly, I have been feeling very confident in my mom abilities during these deep, middle of the night moments. I was so nervous with Will at this stage of pregnancy. But, now I am not. I feel like I am going to be able to do it, and even manage it.

I have this feeling that I am going to be able to handle breast feeding this go around because I know what it takes to be a mom. I hate that I feel like Will is the trial run but honestly, isn't our first born a guessing game? I am anxious for this one to be here, so I can do things right. Does that sound totally horrible? Will has turned out amazing, I couldn't ask for a better little guy. But, now that I know what it takes, thanks to my Will, this time around it will be a lot easier for me.

I won't be stressed like I was with Will. I know the baby ins and outs. I know that his winky has to be pushed down or else you are going to have wet clothes to change with each diaper. Yes, we actually did not know to do this. I still laugh at it.

I think because I know what I know now, that I will be a great mom to this new little guy. I will also be an even better mom to Will because it will be second nature to me.

I feel like my boys and I will have a special bond that can never be broken, even when they do grow up and marry.

I know that I will love this little guy as much as I love Will. There is enough love to go around.

8 comments:

amanda said...

there is so so so much love to go around :)

Emily said...

Good for you! I also felt really confident at the end of my pregnancy with Connor. In some ways, it is so much easier having a second baby. You really do know what to expect and wonder why you thought it was so hard the first time around! I really find that what's hardest for me is Aidan. The older child will be jealous and not understand why you can't focus every second of your day on them like you used to. I feel very bad at times because I can't drop what I'm doing and play with Aidan or give him my undivided attention. It's a balancing act that I have yet to perfect, but I'm working on it. Good luck, sweetie! I know you will be a wonderful Mom of two boys! :)

Barbara said...

Awww, that is so sweet! There is definitely enough love to go around. I'm still not so confident as to how I will juggle 2 at the same time, but hopefully I will get there in a few more weeks!

Lindsay said...

so sweet! You will be great :)

blueviolet said...

Yes, your heart will swell with more than enough room for both of your little guys. You sound so very ready!

Callie said...

That's awesome! I was surprised at what didn't phase me after Harper was born. Of course I didn't like to hear her cry, but it wasn't as life threatening as I thought it was with Hadley. You will fabulous, and honestly, feel like a superhero with each accomplishment. Even if it's just taking them both outside for the first time! :)

Shell said...

There's definitely enough love to go around!

The second(and third!) seem easier b/c you've done it before. Not as many worries.

Carly said...

I think it's nice that you know what you are doing because you will have two kids to balance. Glad you feel so confident.