Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Being Thankful . . .

So very thankful that Will has taken to being a big brother so well. Although he's not that "into" being around Eli he definitely helps me out when I am in a pinch. I know when Eli is able to play with Will, that they will have a blast together! The other day Will had his play at school for Thanksgiving and we all came to see him and when 2 little girls almost ran into me. Will jumped infront me and said, "Watch out! Don't run into my mom and Eil!" Totally melted my heart!

Thankful for my sweet Lew, he works so hard for us everyday and will often stay up for 5-10 minutes during the night feedings with me, just to talk. Half the time I don't remember what we were talking about. He also goes and gets the bottle for me while I change Eli. Love you babe...more than air!

So thankful to have been blessed this year with another little boy. I can't imagine my life any different, even on the days that are hard. You can see the nervousness in my eyes in this picture but now that we are a month in, I have definitely become more confident in my mom of 2 skills.

So thankful that on February 14 of this year we found out we were finally pregnant after almost a year of trying. My little Eli gives us all so much joy. He generally is a wonderful baby except when he's had a little too much action for one day. He is a great sleeper (knock on wood) and usually wakes between 1-2am and between 4-6am for feedings. I remember with Will it being so hard but I guess having mad mom skills now, I have figured out the mom tricks.

This year I feel so very thankful to have been blessed with my family. I feel thankful to be surrounded by my boys. I couldn't ask for anything else.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Can you get any cuter???

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Monday, November 14, 2011

Your Story . . .

My Dear Eli...

You knew when you wanted to come into this world. Maybe it was the Angels who watch over us that made it happen. Your Grandma and Grandpa, who wanted to make it the 23rd. Whatever it may be, I do believe in God and Angels that watch over us and keep us safe.

It was Saturday the 22nd of October and your Aunt Mimi and cousin Lilly were coming over for a vistit. We were going to get Lilly's haircut in downtown Annapolis and go for lunch. A great day. Before we made it over that way, Aunt Mimi decided she was going to drive down a hilly and VERY bumpy road. Hoping it would bring you out soon! We were laughing hysterically as we were going over the bumps, Lilly and Will both got a kick out of it.

The day progressed with nothing out of the ordinary. In fact, no contractions were in sight. On our way home, I was reaching back to get your big brother back in his seat. Yes. He likes to escape sometimes. Right then, I had a massive contraction. Painful. More real then before.

Mimi and Lilly left and were headed back to Virginia to go to a Caps game that night with Uncle Kevin. Mimi said, call me if anything happens and I told her, highly unlikely! Will and I headed to the grocery store to pick up some ice cream and something for dinner. By now, it is around 5:00 and I start to feel kind of weird. Just out of sorts. By 6:00 I started to have contractions. They were not really regular but they were coming. I called Daddy and he was on his way home from work, then I called Aunt Mimi who was on her way to the game. She was freaked out and told me to call her back if I thought it wa the real thing.

Well, 30 minutes later, I knew it was the real thing. My doctor told me to head into the hospital. We dropped big brother Will off at a friend's house and were on our way. When we got there I was 4-5 cm dialated, so they wanted me to walk for an hour to get the contractions more regular and hopefully dialate more. After an hour of walking around in a gown and my nike's, the contractions were regular! Aunt Mimi had made it. Although, Uncle Kevin was a bit bitter about leaving the hockey game!

By 10:30 we were in a room and starting fluids. They checked me and I was 8cm, I was begging for my epidural but the anestheseologist was in with a c-section. UGH! So they called in another one who was at home. By 11:30 I had my epidural, and at midnight Dr. S broke my water.

The epidural was a success unlike with your brother where it did not take. I started to push at 12:1oam on October 23rd and you were born at 12:54am. I took it as another sign because your brother Will was born at 11:54. You both wanted to come on the 23rd and were born at :54 after.

Your birth experience was so easy compared to Will. I didn't feel much unless it was time to push and even that pain was not bad. It would make me have more children, if I would be promised that experience again! Even the healing process has been so much easier.

So far you are proving to be an amazing baby! You do have your fussy times and we now hopefully have that under control, if not we know it is reflux like your brother. You are gaining weight like a champ! Daddy thinks that you will be taller than Will since you were born at 23 inches long. I think both of my boys will be taller than me by the time they reach 6th grade!

I just want you to know I love you so much and can't imagine my life without my sweet Eli. Even your big brother is starting to warm up to the idea that you aren't going anywhere. Will has been amazing. When mommy is stressed out he try and makes me laugh and has done so well playing on his own when I am doing something with you. I hate for him to have to do that but he has taken on that role and seems to be thriving. Within the last 3 weeks he has grown up so much, I amazed by my almost 4 year old.

I am the luckiest mommy in the world to have my boys. Daddy who is the professional bottle maker, Willsy who is my snuggle bug no matter what, and now my baby Eli or Squirmy as we like to call you.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

My Boys . . .

Life is proving to be full of love, laughter, and some tears with my boys. All good. I never thought I would be able to handle 2 on my own but this week, I am. Lew went back to work this week, so I am on my own.

The first week home with Eli was definitely a challenge for me. Breast feeding was a challenge, my hormones were out of control and I had a mini melt down. I realized that I cannot do everything and I cannot beat myself up for things that I cannot do. Even when my best attempt is given, I often beat myself up.

I suffered from and am still getting over it through medication, post partum depression. I didn't have it with Will but this time around, I just felt hopeless, and like the worst mom in the world.

After a wonderful conversation with my doctor, who put things in perspective for me, I am starting to feel a little better.

I am appreciating Lew and my boys more, as well as soaking up this special time.

It will be a journey but it is a journey worth taking.

Friday, November 4, 2011

sick puppy...

My sweet Will was sick for Halloween but still wanted to go trick or treating. He doesn't really care about the candy, he just had fun going house to house. So, more for mommy and daddy!

Hopefully I will have time this coming week to actually do a "real" post. Life is proving to be full with my family of four and I'm okay with that.
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