Showing posts with label happy birthday mom. Show all posts
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Pour Your Heart Out . . . Happy Birthday Mom


Today I am joining in with Shell for her meme of Pour Your Heart Out. So if you have something that you want to get off your chest or just blog about...take a visit to Shell's and link up.
Friday would be my Mom's 56th Birthday.
It is hard to believe it has been almost 9 years since she has been gone.
It feels like I blinked and the years just passed me by.
I often day dream about how my mom and I would be right now. I am a grown woman now.
When she passed away I was a young college kid trying to figure out life. I felt like she left at a really bad time for me. Yes. I am being selfish. But I was just coming into womanhood and how the heck was I supposed to navigate it without her?
I had to grow up very quickly and be responsible. I mean I was the one that took her to all her treatments and had to make sure she got all her meds. on time. I don't think she wanted me to have to do that. But at the same time I think she was happy that it was me and no one else.
I miss that she did not see me get married. That she did not get to meet Will. Because I know that he would have melted her heart. After all he was the first grandson in 19 years. So I know she would have loved him to pieces.
It's just hard to go through life without your mom, your best friend.
What would we be doing for your 56th birthday? I am thinking that we would be going out to a Mexican restaurant, indulging in tons of chips and salsa and of course coronas with limes!
So today Mom, if you are reading this. Happy Birthday. I love you more than air.