Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Pour Your Heart Out . . . Happy Birthday Mom

Today I am joining in with Shell for her meme of Pour Your Heart Out. So if you have something that you want to get off your chest or just blog about...take a visit to Shell's and link up.
Friday would be my Mom's 56th Birthday.
It is hard to believe it has been almost 9 years since she has been gone.
It feels like I blinked and the years just passed me by.
I often day dream about how my mom and I would be right now. I am a grown woman now.
When she passed away I was a young college kid trying to figure out life. I felt like she left at a really bad time for me. Yes. I am being selfish. But I was just coming into womanhood and how the heck was I supposed to navigate it without her?
I had to grow up very quickly and be responsible. I mean I was the one that took her to all her treatments and had to make sure she got all her meds. on time. I don't think she wanted me to have to do that. But at the same time I think she was happy that it was me and no one else.
I miss that she did not see me get married. That she did not get to meet Will. Because I know that he would have melted her heart. After all he was the first grandson in 19 years. So I know she would have loved him to pieces.
It's just hard to go through life without your mom, your best friend.
What would we be doing for your 56th birthday? I am thinking that we would be going out to a Mexican restaurant, indulging in tons of chips and salsa and of course coronas with limes!
So today Mom, if you are reading this. Happy Birthday. I love you more than air.


Shell said...

I can't imagine how hard it would be to lose your mom at such a critical time in your life(or ever, but I think you know what I mean).

Happy birthday to your mom.

Thanks for linking up!

Natalie said...

{Hugs} to you. We lost my hubby's mom right after we were married. His father had passed away right before we started dating. So our children will never know them. And it's really hard because his mom was an amazing woman. Thanks for sharing this story :)

bbcd mama said...

Happy Birthday to your mom!

Tylaine said...

I'm sorry you lost your mom. That's so hard and I feel for you. :) I wish I had something better to say but sometimes there's no words.
Happy Birthday to your mom and I hope you have a great Mother's Day! :)

Tammy said...

What a special post! Your mom sounds like she was so special to you! Happy Mother's Day! Stopping by from Shell's! I just became your newest follower. I love your blog by the cheery!

Anonymous said...

((HUGS)) so hard I couldn't imagine!

Angie said...

I am so sorry you lost your mom at such a young age. I can't imagine.

Happy birthday to your mama!

kanishk said...

it's really hard because his mom was an amazing woman. Thanks for sharing this story :)
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Lindsay @ Just My Blog said...

I don't know what I would do without my mom. I cannot even imagine what you're feeling. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Brandi said...

I can't imagine either... you were too young to lose her and, gosh, she was so young herself. Happy Birthday to your mom.