I am linking up with Shell this week at Things I Can't Say because...well sometimes you just need to pour your heart out. If you feel the same, go on over and link up.
Lately I have been wondering about this whole mommy gig. Yeah. You heard me right. Sometimes I question the whole...should I have gone back to work? I mean I truly have the best job. I am a Personal Trainer that makes up her own hours so that she can be with her son. That is the way I would want it to be. I am totally lucky.
But then there are those times when I wish I could be with the working force. Go back to managing and training in a gym. I really do miss chatting and working with my peers. Taking classes whenever I wanted. But then I am working for someone else and not myself. I like working for myself. I feel like I have a more personal relationship with all my clients.
When I see people leave in the morning to go to work, sometimes I wonder where they are going and can they take me with them. Is that horrible? I feel guilty even writing that.
I kinda think I might be feeling this way because Will is going through some transitions as you all know and really testing my mothering skills. Both my sisters have been otherwise occupied and trying to talk to them about all this has been impossible. But I am glad that I have the bloggy world because then I would feel truly lonely watching everyone in my neighborhood go to work.
The other thing is Will and I go out and about all the time and there are some kids his age in our neighborhood but they live on the other side of it and every time I have said hi to those mothers they really don't respond to me.
I guess I am kinda feeling left out in this mommy gig.
Thanks for listening.