It's time to be honest.
Honest to you. But mostly honest to myself.
I am disappointed.
I am disappointed that a 2nd baby is not coming as easy as I thought it would.
I see friends getting pregnant, bloggy friends getting pregnant, and I feel sad. High school FB friends talking about being pregnant. Sometimes I just want to say, ENOUGH! Don't get me wrong, I am happy for all of them, very happy.
But what about us?
Why is it not happening?
It has been 7 months. One of my good friend's told me not to worry it took her a couple months to conceive her daughter but I am still sad. Disappointed...did I mention that already?
I put on a happy face each month when my period comes but, inside I wish there were a little one growing.
Today when I dropped Will off at school I got back in my car and started crying. Everyone in his class has a sibling and here we are still trying to get pregnant. Sometimes it just doesn't seem fair.
I haven't even told my sisters that we have been trying this long because, I just don't want to hear it.
I just hope and pray that maybe this Christmas God will bless us.